today.

let me start with last night. after i posted that last post i went to sleep and when i was trying to go to sleep my throat started to hurt. and when i woke up it hurt a lot. and it still hurts a lot not. it's like, Molly you aren't going to go to school today so we're going to make you sick so you wouldn't want to go to school anyways. hey, at least i can tell teachers and people that i had a sore throat and use that as my excuse, even though i wouldn't have gone to school anyways.

yesterday afternoon my mom said that her and Carolyn were going up to a farm to look at some horses. my mom was going to have maeve come with her, but she didn't want to, so i was like "yeah, i think i can miss school and go" so i did. it was really sort of sudden, i asked Josh what he thought i should do, and he said to go and i went. i probably would have went even if he told me not too. actually, i don't know for sure. he would have needed some good reasons as to why not to go.

so i got to sleep in an extra hour, which really didn't make a difference seeing as i went to sleep so late, then i was half awake through half the night because my throat was hurting. then we hooked up the trailer and drove 2 hours. the reason why we brought the trailer is because they said that we could have a week trial, so if we liked one of them, we would have taken them with us right then so we didn't have to drive back.

we get there and first we pull out a horse that this girl owns, a gray mare named Shiloh. and the second she starts trotting it's obvious she's off. off meaning lame. meaning i'm not going to get her, or even ride her. and she looked really good too. so then the lady who owns the barn gets a 5 year old chestnut irish warmblood, and a little gray pony. the 5 year old is nice but he's too young and hasn't been under the saddle long enough for me, so no go there. and i get on the pony but he's a little hard to stop and we just don't really click. Carolyn liked him though and wants to use him for her lesson program. the lady didn't want us bringing him home right then for a trailer because she needed to use him for pony rides this weekend. but she might bring him up for a trial on monday. then we decide to look at this big draft horse just while we were here. he was nice too but he was too big for me and too draft like. so i didn't even get on him. and then we drove home for another two hours.

it's just exhausting. traveling in the car all this way, just to get there and be like, sorry Molly there's no horse here for you. i really want a freaking horse. it's going to be hard on Saturday seeing everyone going around with their little horses and i'm not going to have one. what will be really hard is if i don't have a horse for regionals. that's why if i don't have a horse i just want to move to boston so i won't have to deal with any of it. i would still probably come down for regionals just because. and then Carolyn and my mom were talking about if we had a horse camp and if i would want to do it, i said i would if i had a horse. but right now that's not looking probable. especially since my mom completely outruled Wylie today. she said that the lady gave him a week off and tried him and he was fine. but my mom was like she doesn't want to buy an old horse after this one thing happened and he never settled in at the barn and Carolyn said he was very downhill so that would cause problems in an older horse too. so we ain't getting him.

and i was just trying to do my math homework but i couldn't figure it out, and i asked josh but he doesn't have the book in front of him and he tried to help but i still couldn't get it. so i gave up. i'll have my teacher teach me how to do it tomorrow. and now i have to go to an officers meeting and i'm exhausted and my throat still hurts and i just want to sleep. today was supposed to be a nice day off but it wasn't all that nice. i should have just went to school. anyways now i have to go and do stuff.