cool geeky kid here.

i just spend longer than i should have on sporcle doing this one quiz over and over again. they gave you a fill in the blank and you had to fill in the blank. there were 60 of them but they only gave you one at a time and you had two minutes to do it. after a lot of trying i finally got them all. now i'm really tired. i also completed the 50 three lettered words in one minute.

i was talking with Abby on Skype today and I was discussing how I probably won't end up not speaking tomorrow for the Day of Silence just cause it would be a bit of a hassle and I like talking. and then here's the rest of our convo:

Abby: maybe there would be no point X)
[5/19/11 7:27:26 PM] Molly Ronan: ...what? confuseeed, don't mind my little brain
[5/19/11 7:28:39 PM] abby lynn: you have a wonderful brain, i am talking about your blog and how someone wasn't there. and you felt that that day was pointless. and how you can't talk to that someone
[5/19/11 7:29:21 PM] Molly Ronan: i thought you were probably hinting at something like that. -_- but yeah. is that sad that the quality of my day depends on another person?
[5/19/11 7:29:44 PM] abby lynn: no, that isn't sad at all. in someways it is quiet cool really
[5/19/11 7:30:04 PM] Molly Ronan: ehhhh
[5/19/11 7:30:16 PM] abby lynn: it is

is that sad though? that you can't have a good day unless you talk to someone. it didn't use to be like that. now i don't know. maybe i'm exaggerating. i'm sure i would get used to it if he was never at school, i wouldn't like it but. i don't know. it's sort of weird. maybe i'm just not used to it. maybe i'm thinking about it too much. maybe i'm scared. scared most probably. cause if he can already affect my day just by showing up or not then what else can he do? and then there's also the fear that i don't affect him the same way. that's a pretty big fear.

i guess i'm just scared. scared of my own emotions and what they can do to me.