i hate it when you really want to say something nice or meaningful or the right thing, but you can't think of anything to say. everything you think of just sounds so stupid. which will make you feel stupid. but if you say the right thing then it will make you look good in the other persons eyes.

so stupid. and i have nothing else to do except wait for him to text me, after spending 20 minutes trying to figure out what to text him. i shouldn't have even brought up Nicole and Deliah and such. why would i be able to say anything good? no way would i make things better. so instead i waste the time i have to text him.

stupid molly. why even bring it up. like you would say something good. you can barely even put your thoughts together to put on this stupid thing, let alone enough to sound good through a text message. i don't even know why he texts me all the time anyway, i'm not interesting, no matter if he tells me i'm not.

see i know that if i told him all of this he would say something that would make me feel better, but i can't do the same thing for him. that's what annoys me the most. it also annoys me how if i didn't bring it up we would be texting each other back and forth within like 5 minutes but instead. blah. whatever.

now i don't want to end this post because then i'll have nothing to do. i don't want to go on tumblr really. i'm going to text abby, hopefully she's still awake.