so you all knew this post was coming.

yep. this would be the post where i correct everything i said in the last post. so abby read the post and apparently Jayna called someone a bad name and she was worried about what would happen if someone told an adult. and she didn't want to get me involved since i was stressed already with school or whatever. very considerate of her but too bad it backfired and just got me pissed. so yeah. i'm still annoyed but i'll get over it. abby felt bad but it wasn't really her fault. and jayna felt bad i guess but if she felt that bad she would shut up, get over her drama, and come back and sit with me. abby wasn't supposed to tell me about all that but honestly i'm not going to stress over jayna's drama, i am smarter than that and i have enough to worry about. such as being a teenager. it takes a lot of effort. um. i don't think i want to say anything else about that.

isn't it strange how caught up we get in little things when in a few years it won't matter at all? it guess it is the way our society is set up and how time works. like how we should live in the moment since you never know when it will be your last one but to remember the big picture too. confusing, eh?

well you know how i enjoy thinking of the "what ifs" and it is very entertaining. it supplies me with plenty of things to think of at bedtime or on the bus ride home. a while ago i was thinking about The Twenty Tens, which never happened, then i was thinking about a guy who i have forgotten his name and i have now remembered - Mike Krupa. remember him? he was going to be my best gay friend but that never happened. now i'm on the whole Dakota/band thing and with my luck that won't ever happen either. or if it does it will end up being extremely awkward and all my fantasies of Dakota becoming a wonderful friend and becoming friends with her bandmates will be destroyed. and of course there are all those dreams including guys, none of which have happened. but hey if they did happen wouldn't that mean i can predict the future? maybe i should stop imaging all this stuff so it actually has a chance of happening. but what about positive thinking? i'm just driving myself crazy.

this blog is driving me crazy. i am trying to figure something to say that lets people see what a wonderful person i am and how i can see things no one else does. that's a lie. i'm just a normal person. but that sounds horrible. i'm just bored really. i should edit my novel. nahhh. wanna hear all my ideas for a new story i will write this summer? of course you do.

-Works at Nail Polish Store during Summer
-Super Heroes that Live W/ Us
-Airplane - everyone connected with a bunch of different stories. girl opens up magazine and crossword filled out - goes to a story about the guy who filled out the crossword. guy across the isle - story about him. Everyone has a reason and a story why they are on an airplane going from one place to the next
-The Quest About Being Heard - blog style
-Want a Big Sweet 16 Party - Tries to get as many friends as possible before then
-Walks to Work everyday, gets hit by a car, guy in car - gets to know him and struggles with if he likes her because of guilt or what?
-Band- girl gets invited to be a drummer in a band
-Neighbor stuff.

I think my favorite is the one where she tries to get as many friends as possible. but then her party turns out horrible obviously. all she would have to do is put an invitation up on facebook and everyone would show up though.