my jams for the day.

Not My Birthday by Allstar Weekend

Every Clock is ticking faster
Taking trips around the sun
Another year, another chapter
5 and 4 and 3 and 2 and 1

Drop your calls, lose your keys
Before the night is gone
Get yourself out your seat
oh oh
Quit your bitchin move your feet
Until the break of dawn
Cause nobody really cares about the day that you were born

Except for everyone who ruins your birthday
You gotta party like its not, party like its not
This songs for anyone who is having the worst day
You gotta party like its not, party like its not

oh o oh
Party like its not, party like its not
Like its not your birthday
Party like its not, party like its not
oh o oh
Party like its not, party like its not
Like its not your birthday
Party like its not, party like its not
oh o oh

Take a moment of the good life
Chase it down until you fall
365 nights
Why just one if we can have them all

Drop your calls, lose your keys
Before the night is gone
Get yourself out your seat
oh oh
Clap your hands, move your feet
Until the break of dawn
Cause nobody gives are damn about the day that you were born

This songs for everyone who ruins your birthday
You gotta party like its not, party like its not
This songs for anyone who is having the worst day
You gotta party like its not, party like its not
oh o oh

Party like its not, Party like its not,
Like its not your birthday
Party like its not, party like its not
oh o oh
Party like its not, party like its not,
Like its not your birthday
Party like its not. party like its not
oh o oh

Ok lets loose control
I wanna see everybody on the floor
Well go and send your invitations
Do it now cuz time is wastin
Life is tough so loosen up
Dj turn that weekend up
Get down, get loud
Everybody stand up, everybody go nuts
Throw your hands up
Ok, Check it out, heres the plan
We gonna dance till we can not stand
Move your feet to every beat
O Crap, bring it back, put it on repeat
When the crowd goes wild then you know its on
If you wanna party then heres your song
Its alright its ok
Its not even my birthday!

Party like its not, party like its not
Party like its not, party like its not
Like its not your birthday
Party like its not, party like its not
oh o oh
Party like its not, party like its not

This songs for everyone who ruins your birthday
You gotta party like its not, party like its not
This songs for anyone who is having the worst day
You gotta party like its not, party like its not
oh o oh
(Like its not your birthday)
Party like its not, party like its not
(Like its not your birthday)
Party like its not, party like its not
oh o oh
(Like its not your birthday)
Party like its not, party like its not
(Like its not your birthday)
Party like its not, party like its not
oh o oh

Golden Forever by The Wanted

Say my name like it's the last time,
Live today like its your last night,
We want to cry but we know its alright,
Cause I'm with you and your with me,
Butterflies, butterflies..we were meant to fly,
You and I, you and I... colors in the sky,
We could rule the world someday, somehow
But we'll never be as bright as we are now.

We're standing in a light that won't fade,
Tomorrow's coming but this won't change,
Cause some days stay gold forever.
The memory of being here with you is one
I'm gonna take my life through,
Cause some days stay gold forever.

Promise me you'll stay the way you are,
Keep the fire alive and stay young at heart,
When the storm feels like it could blow you out
Remember, you got me and I got you..
Cause we are butterflies, butterflies... we were meant to fly,
You and I, you and I... colors in the sky,
When the innocence is dead and gone,
these will be the times we look back on.

We're standing in a light that won't fade,
Tomorrow's coming but this won't change,
Cause some days stay gold forever.
The memory of being here with you is one I'm gonna take my life through,
Cause some days stay gold forever.

I won't, I won't let your memory go
Cause your colors they burn so bright,
Who knows, who knows what tomorrow will hold
But I know that we'll be alright

Butterflies, butterflies... we were meant to fly,
You and I, you and I... colors in the sky,
We could rule the world someday, somehow
But we'll never be as bright as we are now.

We're standing in a light that won't fade,
Tomorrow's coming but this won't change,
Cause some days stay gold forever.
The memory of being here with you is one I'm gonna take my life through,
Cause some days stay gold forever.

I don't think these lyrics are completely correct but I'm not going to listen to them and type the lyrics out myself so. You get the idea. But these are my songs for the day. Today wasn't actually all that horrible, mostly because I had a pretty good lesson. I rode the two hardest horses and I actually did well. I rode them. I don't have any reason to be afraid to ride them because I can. I did today. So that gave me a bit of a confidence boost. What did I do the rest of the day? Nothing. What do I have planned for tomorrow? Nothing. Whatever, that's old news.

I'm really just an awkward girl. Example? Adam cleans stall every Saturday at the barn and every time he comes I'll always say Hi to him and he'll says say Hi back and then I'll never say anything else. Remember back in the summer when I use to just hang around and talk to him? I miss that. What happened? Is it because it's school time now? It's cold and I don't want to stand around anymore? Is it because whenever I see him at the barn Maeve or my mom are around? Is it because I'm just more of a chicken now? He's in my study hall now too and I never talk to him in there. Thats partially because there are only six of us and we're always so quiet and no one ever talks, and partially because I never know what to say. I don't know, I still think he would be a good friend. I messed that up apparently. I'll probably mess up my friendship with Josh too. The only friendships that I haven't messed up yet are Abby's and Dana's. Every other one of my friends, I've messed it up at some point. Katelyn and I are just completely messed up. Mollie and Sarah I ditched for a few years and just this year we've really started talking about. Becca thinks I hate her, or she did for a while. I don't know what happened with Ally but I don't really care. Alaina and Shannon are long gone. I never talk to Danny from driving school any more. I seen my babygroup friends in years. I've messed up my friendship with Bella countless times but somehow we are still friends. Who else? Danielle and I used to be sort of friends, never talk to her. I used to talk to Anna a bit, never talk to her. I used to be really good friends with Stephanie, but now I never talk to her, I messed that friendship up somehow. I'm sure its me, because if they wanted to be friends with me they would have tried harder, or I should have tried harder to stay friends with them.

How did this blog turn from my jams for the day into talking about all the friendships I've messed up? Yep, just a lovely awkward girl. Actually that lovely could be debated. Alright going to shut up now.