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i have posted a lot today. but i'm going to post again because i'm starting to get nervous. make a note there. around 5:50pm on september 1st the nerves started getting to me. i'm not even able to concentrate on this blog. it's been a little under 10 minutes since i started this and i've gotten no where. i have typed novels in ten minutes before. i need to be calm and act like it is no big deal and i have to believe that not act. just to show Maeve that everything is fine and there is nothing to worry about. plus i need to be confident. so the confidence starts now. and that whole transformation thing. hah. it is suppose to start tomorrow but that will have to be a big change from today but we will see how it goes. really it's just another school year and i'll make it through some way and it will be over before i know it then i'll have another summer which will be another adventure with driving lessons and my first summer with Pride completely. but i should think about what i have to look forward to this year: Maeve in the same school as me, a horse to ride after school, a fabulous vacation during Thanksgiving break, being done with being a lower class-person, a summer of learning how to drive, and just getting one year closer to being done with school and being able to start my successful career.