just another face in the crowd.

that is really what i am to anyone who isn't my friend. i'm just another girl in class. another girl you pass in the hallway that you don't talk to. another body taking up space. another teenage girl.

that sucks.

truly. there is no other way to say it because that's pretty much it. to almost all the world that is what i am. actually almost all the world doesn't even know i exist. grand.

you pass someone in the hallway. do you normally stop to say hi to them? normally not. do you think about them? maybe for a second but if you don't even know their name you just keep walking along. do you think about their life? what their problems are? what they are like? their personality? history? are they right handed or left handed? what are their talents? what is their story? nopppe. you probably do not think that and if you did what are you going to do about it? now all you have are a bunch of questions and no answers because the other person is already walking down the hallway and they probably didn't even give you a thought.

and what about when you pass someone or see someone and you think they are cute? you don't just walk up to them and say "i think you're cute". if you did they would probably think you were a creeper. it's not like they would run off saying "She thinks I'm cuteeee!". because of our stupid society we don't say things like that to people we just meet even if that i what we are thinking. sucks.

i guess that is all i wanted to say. why? because i pass a lot of people in the hallway that i think about. like today i was walking to my locker during class and I passed Sam who took one look at me and kept walking. and then walking from science i passed this kid i thought was cute that i had never seen before but i didn't say anything to him. i wouldn't of had the guts to anyways. and i always pass Ryan at least once in the day normally. and there are a bunch of kids who are in my class that i ponder but they probably don't even think about who i am really am. or maybe they do. i do not know.

i'm more tired today than i was yesterday. i'm going to go babysit now.