i forgot to mention earlier. today when i was walking up the stairs to english all three of the guys that i am supposed to be talking to were walking in front of me. seriously. you had josh right in front of me and right in front of him was Joey and in front of him was Adam. if everyone spread out their arms we would have made a chain, we were so close.

now you are probably asking, what did you say to who? yeah nothing.

but honestly what's the rush? why do i need to have a boyfriend? well i guess that isn't even really the problem here at all. the problem is i am a shy little girl who doesn't have enough confidence to talk to someone. i acknowledge that yet i'm not ready to take the steps to change that. who knows when i will be ready, if ever. so maybe i just need to give myself a boot and say "get over yourself" or i do what i always do, play it safe - write and complain about it in my blog and do nothing about it in real life.

hm. maybe the magic of christmas will show me the way. but right now i'm sleeping. or i am going to sleep within the next half hour. i'm so tired.