hi, i think i'm going to try to write in here a lot more. plus i'm waiting for josh to text me back before i go to sleep and i'm listening to meghan tonjes cover of skinny love, which i love.

the other day when josh and i went to the batman movie i was scared that i was going to get shot like at the shooting in Colorado. i'm too young to die. i have so much i need to do. i have such big ambitions. i have so many people to meet. i have so much more to experience. and i have more i need to do for this world. i need to make my mark. i have so much potential i haven't unlocked yet. i'm going to be great. and not to mention that i want to see this blog be published. i want to walk down the street and see someone sitting on a bench reading a book titled "some random words." i wonder what i would do in that case. would i say something to them? or just let them read it in peace? my first instinct is to say that i would keep walking so they could experience it themselves, but then what if they would love to meet me and if they found out i was right there and i kept walking instead of talking to them?

i talk like i know i'm going to be awesome. well i already am awesome. but i'm going to be even more awesome. i sound so cocky. i'm not actually, you guys probably already know that. if not then i'm not doing a good job writing this blog.

right now i'm really just tired and i should go to sleep. i'm kind of hungry too, but i'm not going to get any food now, that will have to wait until the morning.

i can't wait until i am actually doing something with my life. like when i'm in the best days of my life. but what if when i'm there, i keep thinking it's going to get better, and i keep waiting and wishing for something more? i guess like now. i am all exciting for the future and what is coming, but what if now is the best part of my life. i hope not. the future seems so much brighter. but does your future ever stop being bright? at what part of your life are you not excited for what is yet to come? is there a certain age you reach, a moment in your life? i hope not actually. i hope i am always excited for what is going to come, yet i don't forget to appreciate and enjoy what is happening now.