i slept through my lesson today. i slept for almost 12 hours last night. and i'm still tired. and i don't feel good. i just want to go back to sleep. and you know that you're sick when your mom tells you that you don't have to ride.

what i really should be doing now is working on my research paper but i don't want to. i really should seeing as i don't even have one page done, it has to be 7 pages, and it's due on wednesday.

i'm looking at colleges instead and beginning to plan out which ones i want to see when we go to New York to get our visas to go to China. and do you know that Clarkson is five hours away? it is all the way in Northern New York, it isn't even close to New York City. i'm still playing around with the idea of Clarkson in my head. if i don't go there and make my parents pay all that money for another school when it would have been so much cheaper at Clarkson because of my scholarship i will feel so bad. so i'm just praying that I like Clarkson. it isn't a top school like the other ones i've been looking at but at least it has a good business program.

but i won't be going to college if i don't get this research paper done.