tengo dolor de garganta.

sorry about that awful background for a few days. i was trying it out and then when i tried to change it back it kept giving me an error code until now. grrr. but anyways it is back and i backed it up so i will be able to get it back even if i change it. so it's all good. (:

this has been a hard week for me. if you didn't notice i was grumpier than normal and snappier. guess it is just because it was the week after vacation. hopefully next one will be better even though it is a full one. so yeah. i apologize to anyone i snapped at or said some weird comment to. 

i was already planning this blog post when i was on the bus. i was going to talk about a girl in my gym class but i am not sure if i want to do. now i do since i mentioned her. i look up to her. she doesn't have straight As, or is great at gym, or anything like that. she is so sure of herself and she has made mistakes but she accepts them and she tells us about them. she is so open and even though we are ninth graders, and she is in eleventh she treats us all the same. all of us. you should meet her sometime. today in gym we were listening to Fifteen by Taylor Swift. go listen to it if you haven't. or if you have go and listen to it again. it happened to her. she was telling abbs and i about it. she may not be my best friend or could really even be considered a "friend" but you know. and i'm gonna include Taylor Swift's lyrics on this page, and just so you know i typed them all out:

you take a deep breath

and you walk through the doors

it's the morning of your very first day

you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while

and try to stay our of everybody's way

it's your freshman year

and you're gonna be here for the next four years

in this town

hopin' one of those senior boys boys

will wink at you and say you know i haven't seen you around

before

cause when your fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

you're gonna believe them

and when you're fifteen

feelin' like there's nothing to figure out

count to ten

take it in

this is life before you know you're gonna be

fifteen

you sit in class next a red-head named Abigail

and soon enough you're best friends

laughin' at the other girls

who think they're so cool

we'll be out of here as soon as we can

and then you're on your very first date

and he's got a car

and you're feelin' like flying

and you're momma's waitin' up

and you're thinkin' he's the one

and you're dancin' around the room when the night ends

when the night ends

cause when you're fiftenn and somebody tells you they love you

you're gonna believe them

and when you're fifteen

and your first kiss makes your head spin around

but in your life you'll do things

greater than datin the boy on the football team

i didn't know it at fifteen

when all you wanted

was to be wanted

wish you could back

and tell yourself what you know now

back then i swore i was gonna marry him someday

but i realize some bigger dreams of mine

and Abigal gave everything she had

to a boy who changed his mind

and we both cried

cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you

you're gonna believe them

and when you're fifteen

don't forget to look before you fall

i've found time can heal most anything

and you might find who you're suppose to be

i didn't know who i was supposed to be

at fifteen

la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la...

your very first day

take a deep breath girl

and take a deep breath as you walk through the doors