this is a weird life.

it is, isn't it?

we get so caught up in everything. seriously. who said that we have to go to school? there was no guide written for the humankind of what they had to do. this is just how we evolved. now it is our everything. but there is nothing that is forcing it to be our life. make sense?

so sometimes it sucks. and it's not even our fault. it's not like we wanted to be stuck in the math class with the hardest teacher in the school.

what if life was completely different? what if we didn't care what other people think? what if we didn't wait around for something to happen? what if we all said exactly how we feel? what if our life wasn't obsessed with school because we need to get a good job because we need to get money because we need to buy what we need because that's the way our society is.

whoa.

i want to do a community service project this year. why? because i don't have enough to do. that was sarcasm. but because my mother came up with the idea and i could verify it through 4h. you know what i bet the underlying reason is? it looks good on college application. it all goes back to getting a good education. right? but i was talking about this before with the Boys Hope Girls Hope. but they are too far away to really support them. so i want to find a good cause and do a bunch of stuff for them. well maybe not a bunch but at least a little. i need to watch more Extreme Home Makeover. i need ideas really. i need to find something that i am passionate about.

but our family is sponsoring a soldier. her name is Leslie Peterson. we are going to send her a letter every week and send her care packages. and be her angles. some soldiers have family back home and some don't. we don't know anything about her. we don't even expect her to write back. no matter who she is, what she has done, what she believes, what she looks like, or anything really, we are going to support her. i like that.

so. i'm going to keep on moving forward. i hope you do the same.