okay hi again everyone. so i believe in god.

i have been trying to win tickets to see the fray on saturday for a while. i was trying on a site called tunespeak and i got close but didn't have the time to stick with it. and entering on radio stations and such. but i basically came to accept that i wasn't going to go. the tickets were expensive and yeah it's alright because i got to see fall out boy and new politics.

then today i was driving to church with Corey and she told me how a random guy in trader joe's was following her around and finally he started talking with her and asked if she wanted tickets to go see the fray. and of course when she tells me this i am freaking out like whaaat?! and she was just like yeah, i think it was god telling me not to judge people and all. so i tell her well if you are looking for someone to go with you, i would love to go. and that was pretty much it, she didn't really say that i could go - i assumed she already asked someone, which was fine.

then at church it was really good today. i got an image of our family standing on this square concrete or stone and we were really little like outlines of people and then the stone starts crumbling and breaking and there are huge cracks and Maeve is falling and she is barely holding on and we are trying to pull her back up, but then a piece of the stone comes back up under her and lifts her back up. and while there are still cracks left they are small and we are all still standing. and then i had another image of god just wrapping a blanket around Maeve and keeping her safe and protected. as you can tell i have been worried about Maeve a lot so it was good to know that God is looking after her.

but i really just want to stop making things about me and start looking towards God so i can reflect him. so i can transform - wait it's about me again. so i can let him transform me to do his good. and i am going to try to read the bible some. and i will talk more about religion and my thoughts on it later, it will be a long post and right now i am tired and haven't gotten to the best part of my story yet.

okay anyways so we are leaving and Corey says she will walk me to my car and Kristian was going to bring her home. but anyways she says she has something for me and i am just like...awww you are so nice. i saw earlier that she had given Kristian a bracelet so that is what i am thinking it is. anyways, Kristian gets distracted so i end up giving Corey a ride home and she says then she can give it to me now. and she gives me her tickets to the Fray. and i am just grinning and so excited. and she is saying how God told her she was given them to give to me. she realized it when she was at church and god was telling her that she needed to give them away. and i am just so grateful and thankful and i'm telling her that i will bring her if she wants to come. and she is just like take them and bring whoever you want. and i am just so shocked. i had given up complete hope on those tickets. and now i am holding them. and it's so amazing. and i am so excited. and oh honey is opening for them and they have been the theme song to my life lately and i can't express how grateful i am.

wow. and the price of one of this tickets was about how much i paid for Kristian's utilities. so look how it comes back to you. it's so amazing. and i am so thankful. and wow. just wow wow wow. definitely going to start paying more attention to god.