I have been spending money like crazy lately...$50 for Kristian's utilities, $20 for a present for Corey, $30 for Hanson's kickstarter, $45 for Abby's fund, $30 for Kyle Reynold's kickstarter, $60 for new face stuff cause the stuff i bought isn't working...and I still want to buy a $100 backpack and I have a list of things I need to buy for China and I need to go grocery shopping today...

but i have to remember that everything i spent and give to other people so $170 will come back to me somehow...like the tickets to the Fray and some people in front of us paying for our ice cream (which we should have continued and paid for the people behind us! so frustrated i didn't! worse that Zach is the one who pointed out that i should have)

i shouldn't be worried about money because i have enough but i just see myself spending it all and i have no income...which is kind of scary. but i'll be okay. i don't want to be restricted by money and have it control my life...i already missed a concert by the Neighbourhood because of that. 

oh wow, i just read that Ricky isn't going to Europe with David and Jose for their tour...that is kind of shocking. i was so proud of them for pulling that off and doing it all themselves. i wonder what is going on in his life. i hope everything is okay. i wish him and the rest of the boys luck. goodness.

anyways i also left the oven on all night which i am beating myself up about, especially because that means the electric bill will be higher and that affects people other than me too...

but still thinking about KTK, reminder that other people have a lot going on in their lives. i am grateful and blessed that i have the life i have and can afford to help other people as i do.

that's dream you know: to help other people's dreams come true and if i can do that by $30 that is great. eventually i want to be able to help more. fund a whole kickstarter. be the manager behind a band that blows up.

anyways i should get out of bed and maybe try to be somewhat productive today. it's 1:12pm.

let me write a list of what i should do today:

- shower

- grocery shopping

- library

- Chinese lesson

- blog post

- start getting friends addresses together

- start clearing out Babtop

- write up about last music industry visit

i think if i do all of that i will be happy. so let's go!