when i'm in extreme moods i post a lot.

have you been able to tell? that when i'm in extreme moods i always posts. i'm either extremely mad, upset, happy, indifferent, or tired. there you go. so you can't trust these posts. they are tainted by emotion.

i'm in a good mood again. why? because i have been left alone for the night and i'm thinking about earlier when I was talking to Adam. that beat going bowling. that beat going to the beach. it was a completely unplanned event but it worked out so perfectly. i can't get over how perfectly all the timing worked. you don't get it. things don't work out like that. i would have to work elsewhere or ride, i wouldn't be working in the same exact place as him at the same exact time with the right person. i wouldn't have him wave at me as he left. it makes me so happy. so so so happy.

i lied before. there is a bit of the nervous stuff. i know because i checked my facebook chat and I saw that "Adam" was online and my tummy did that little flipfloppy thing until I realized it wasn't Adam Munska, it was another Adam. i almost just did the same thing again.

but this is what i needed. i'm so happy. i can't wait until next Thursday. if everything can just work out so perfectly like this all the time. and it is good that this was the second time he was there. it is just so good. so happy. ah.

i should be sleeping. but i don't want to go to bed because that is like admitting that this day is over and that tomorrow isn't going to be nearly as good. but that doesn't really matter. it doesn't matter what tomorrow is going to be like because today was so good.

it wasn't like i talked to Adam for the whole day but that just made the rest of the day good. the beach with Dana was nice but i still can't believe how that worked out.

now i'm probably going overboard. but how can i not? if you just think about it. really think about it. gosh. it's like wow.

i hope that Adam is thinking it was a nice conversation at least. he probably isn't going as overboard as i am but still. he did wave to me when i left. that sort of gives me some hope that he liked spending time with me. maybe he will end up coming with Emily to clean stalls more while she is here just to see me. ha. but i can hope.

i need to sleep. hopefully i'll have some good dreams. it's okay if i don't though because today everything worked out like a dream. seriously. it was just so perfect. i can't get over it. at all. and nothing can take that away from me. that makes me smile too. thinking about how it already happened and how no one can change it now. it will forever be a wonderful day.

a year from now i wonder what i will be thinking when i read these posts. i wonder what will have happened. but no matter what happens that can't change the perfectness of today.

i can't get over it. it worked out so well, almost too well. not too well. too well would be include getting a phone number and having him write on a facebook wall. but i am almost glad that those two things didn't happen. everything happened that was supposed to. nothing was rushed. it is just so perfect. ahah. so happy. (:

:D