i'm tired. i don't want to go to sleep. i have camp again tomorrow. i'm sick of it. goodness. today was fun but tomorrow. oh wait. tomorrow is thursday. last thursday Adam Munska was at the barn. he hasn't been back since that i know of. his sister has. i'm hoping because that will just make this whole camp thing worth it. please. my summer has been average and the rest isn't looking up. i have like one day every one week or so that looks promising and the rest just aren't exciting. and i still have the stupid summer reading. i just need to get it done so it isn't looming over me. i also need to go to sleep. why am i writing this? do you even care? this is just one part of my life and in a few years i'll forget all about it. all these feelings that seem so important now, they won't be soon. that's frustrating. life is frustrating. can't i just sit here in front of my laptop for as long as i want to? nope. i need to go to sleep. why do we need sleep?

i need to stop this.

tomorrow: Adam, Dana, beach, Thursday.

Adam Munska if you do not come to the barn tomorrow while i am there (9 to 3, that's six hours, equivalent to a school day) I will be very disappointed. there is only so much a sixteen year old girl can take of 3 little kids, her sister, another girl her sister's age, and her riding instructor. i need something, someone. seriously. i'm freaking tired of waiting.