i love watching people do "their thing". like if you are a dancer, i would love to watch you dance. if you are an actor, i would love to see you act. if you are a fisher, i would love to see you fish. if you are a writer, i would love to read something you wrote. if you are an athlete, i would love to see you play/compete/whatever verb you do. if you are a musician, i would love to hear you sing. just to see someone do something that you know they have practiced and worked hard on. just to see them do what they love. and to be able to do it well is even more amazing. because you feel proud of them. you say "wow" and can't help but smile when you watch them. i think everyone has the ability to do that, they just have to find the right thing and the right person to watch them.

examples. when i watch Abby on the stage i can't help but smile. i'm watching this amazing dancers right now on a video and they are having fun and they are so good, they make me smile. thinking of watching a future boyfriend doing whatever, i'm already smiling. it doesn't matter so much what it is, it's just that they do it and they have fun and they have practiced and they are good and it's wonderful. you know what i'm saying? i want to be able to give someone that feeling too. doing what? i guess for me it would be riding. i don't think i have made someone smile while riding a horse that i can think of. or maybe i have but no one has told me. i want someone to watch me and feel extremely proud of me, even if they hadn't seen me ride for countless hours over the years before that had prepared me for that moment. excluding family members.

why am i talking about this now? because i was watching these amazing dancers. i would love to be able to dance like that. but then i also say that i would love to be able to play soccer really well, or play the drums really well, or sing really well. but i know i can do everything. so i want to watch other people and smile. and more than that when i think of people that i know and love, i want to be able to support them with what they love. that's why i always try to make it to Abby's improv show and the plays, even if she is just in crew. that's why i am skipping the horse show at the end of the week to go see Maura perform, but that is different because she is family. i guess this is also me wanting to have some guy, some boyfriend, that i can go out and support and to see him do what he loves. that's kind of important to me. maybe some people can have a boyfriend, or even anyone really, that doesn't have...i don't know what you would call it, a hobby?, a passion? let's go with passion...maybe someone can have a boyfriend that doesn't have a passion but i don't know if i can. HA. i haven't even had one so i shouldn't be saying anything. really it's just a dream of being able to watch him do what he loves and to be able to have that feeling inside of me. that's only one part though. i want to be able to talk to him and feel on the of the world. but now i'm getting off topic.

do what you love. love what you do. and let me watch you do what you love and love what you do.