random note about marriage. for some reason i've been thinking about it...actually i know the reason. because of CTFxC and Kristian (my roommate) is thinking about marriage. and the whole divorce thing which was supposed to be settled by now but now they have the date set on my birthday...woo!

but CTFxC has been hard because Charles has been posting pictures of a new girl and keeps using the hashtag #happy and they just posted today that the divorce is final. that was so fast. we are still dealing with our divorce a year and a half later. i mean my mom and dad had been married a lot longer and there were kids involved. but the fact that Alli and Charles could just divorce and move on with their lives in that quickly. i mean there was most likely stuff going on behind the scenes that i don't know about so i shouldn't judge. it is just actually hard for me to see that.

and then Kristian is 22 and thinking about getting married. her boyfriend is a lot older than her (they went through the church and everything...it's a bit of a longer story then i was planning on getting into) and she was saying how on one side she loves him and really wants to marry him and be with him for the rest of the life and on the other side she just wants to run away from it all.

but it me right now marriage doesn't seem all that great. it seems like it just makes things harder and makes people unhappy. i don't know, i'm not too keen on it. like we can just stay boyfriend/girlfriend. OH RIGHT i also met someone on wednesday who recently called off her engagement and thought that they would just go back to dating but then he went through a big thing and basically their over right now. so more marriage stuff.

but then i watch the Shaytards and i'm like...maybe it does exist where you can be happy in your marriage. if the Shaytards ever got a divorce then i'm completely swearing off marriage. maybe i shouldn't hold the whole thing up to them. but they right now are my role models and example when it comes to relationships. all i got.

okay sorry, i was just watching the shaytards and they were so happy and the quote of the day brought it up again. not like marriage is anytime soon for me (single single single here) but i think it would be good to sort of have some views and thoughts on it before it's time to discuss it with someone else. by the way the quote of the day is: Love: A temporary insanity curable by marriage. – Ambrose Bierce (1842-1914) so more reason to lean towards the why the heck get married side of things.