i don't want to go to sleep yet but i don't want to watch any more youtube videos and without social media i have nothing to do. i'm just listening to Hunter Hayes's song and then i'm going to go to sleep. i'm going to get sick of this song i'm listening to it so much but i love it.

i would love to have a boyfriend or just someone to flirt with and just have fun hanging out with. but i don't know if i really want a boyfriend now you know? or maybe i'm just saying that because i haven't found anyone. if it's the right person then of course. but i like being available for my band boys. umm Jose, Ricky still single and very much the right age.

i was stupid and sent some stupid messages to Jose on facebook/tumblr but i'm hoping he will forget about them or when i meet him he won't remember. also it's going to be awkward seeing Adam on Friday after i sent him all my business stuff and he hasn't read it and given me his response yet. he had emailed me saying he was busy. but now i'm thinking it wasn't the best idea to email him. i don't know. we will see. i still have to figure out who is coming with me to that concert. i have to get through midterms first. got one tomorrow at 8:30am, then another wednesday, then another friday. then i might have a double horse show weekend or maybe not, depending on if Babson can get it's shit together and give us a check within the next two days or not. we will see!

okay i should get ready to sleep now so i can be fully rested for my exam. who knows maybe i'll meet the man of my dreams tomorrow. ha funny. maybe i already met him...that's more interesting especially if he is a musician. if not, not as interesting.

just kidding! i'll love my future boyfriend/husband even if he isn't a musician!

(maybe)