i kind of can't wait to be back at Babson to get away from all the Taylor Mathews and Loud Tour stuff. it will probably die down once tour is done anyways. but it's a lot. and it's like a constant reminder that i'm just another fan really. okay people would argue otherwise but when it comes down to it, i'm a fan and i'm over here and he is over in california with all his friends.

so i will be happy to have a life back at Babson. even though i won't really because no one will be there and i just have one class...but then i'll be in china and then i'll have a life.

BUT DID I TELL YOU?! i got the camp counselor job! i'm so excited. and kind of nervous. but right now mainly excited. i'm a senior counselor apparently, even though i only applied to be a junior counselor! and i'm going to get paid $3,000 for the whole summer! which i guess isn't a lot if you look at how long i am going to be working, but it is pretty good for a college student looking for a summer job. and it should be so fun. long days outside in the sun. dealing with temperamental kids. wait, i mean - i get to hang out with awesome kids and get to know them and get all of their love. kids always make you feel special. i love them so much. and then i'll also get to hang out with the counselors and hopefully there are some good counselors there so i can make friends and all. i just really hope it is a good experience. i'm going to be there as soon as i get back from China. like i'm missing the first two days of training because i'll still be in China. but i get back around 11pm on Sunday (training started on Saturday) and then i have a 2 hour drive home (i said that i would drive home but my mom is insisting that she will pick me up) and then i'll be up for training at 8:30. yayyy. and i'll be super jetlagged but it will be fun because i'll be at...training...that's fun right? i'm mainly nervous about what i'll miss during those first two days of training. but maybe i'll be the mysterious missing counselor or the late new girl. that could be good for my image too. gotta pick up those cute counselor boys.

but really i'll just be glad that i have something to do. like today i was all excited to go to khol's and the barn. and then we never went. and i did nothing and i got all sluggish and blahhh. it was just a blah day. and i was so tired all day. my sleeping pattern is getting so messed up. i stay up until 12 and then sleep super late and then i'm super tired all day the next day but i won't go to sleep early. like right now i'm writing this instead of sleeping. i'm kind of hungry too but that will have to wait until tomorrow morning. so i really should go to sleep. i really am tired.

i think i'm going to need another twitter break soon as well. like a whole social media break. but that might not be until i start camp. wow. i start camp in like a month. in a month i will have finished my whirlwind class and trip to china. so crazy.

i am really tired. i need to get up. okay. now i will.