i just saw a picture of Selena Gomez at the Billboard Awards and she is gorgeous. seeing her made me really wish i was good looking and attractive and not just that but like one of those girls who just walk into the room and everyone wants to talk to her and be her because she is so gorgeous.

like there is this girl Camilla, who i don't know, but David loves her because he sent a snapchat with her and he posted a picture with her on instagram. and she wasn't even in Tay's VIP. she is just gorgeous. and apparently all the Lynch boys love her too. and i hear is she extremely nice too which just makes it better.

this is what it is like. if you are very attractive then people will start talking to you. if you are nice and have a good personality then they will keep talking to you. then you have friends. now alternatively if you aren't very attractive, either you have to be the one who starts a conversation or occasionally people will start talking to you. if you are nice and have a good personality then sometimes people will continue talking to you. if you aren't very good looking at all then you have to struggle to have people talk to you and then the good people will keep talking to you once they see you are nice and have a good personality but most won't bother.

that is the honest truth.

okay so where do i fall? i don't think i'm ugly but i don't think i am that gorgeous either. i think i have my moments when i'm occasionally good looking and attractive. but not all the time. sooo basicalllly i have to struggle to get peeps to talk to me most of the time. and then sometimes i'll hit off with them, but most of the time they won't really continue talking to me. because i'm awkward and never know what to say and it just sucks.

i'm still waiting for the day that i grow up and look gorgeous. probably will be waiting for a while...