he posted on facebook that he is confused. i am too. there are all these feelings. it's different. i don't know. it's not as easy to talk to him. something needs to change soon or else we are just going to crash and burn. i'm so sorry though. i'm so sorry i make you upset and confused. i really don't want to. i want the best for you and i don't know if i am anymore if all i am doing is causing you pain. i know you want me to make you happy and i know i did but maybe i just can't do that anymore. i feel like this has been coming ever since i went to California and you went on your cruise with Abby and your family. things haven't been the same since then, have they? or maybe it's just me. maybe i changed then or something. it's almost like i'm being an unfeeling person, not really, but like writing this now it's just...i don't know. i should stop. maybe i should go to sleep early.