i should explain myself now seeing as i just left you will all of those questions but eh. i may not. mostly because i already discussed this with Abby but i can't leave my adoring future readers hanging. well i can and i'm sure i already have but here is the chat. or some of it. actually the whole thing cause i don't feel like reading through it and cutting stuff out. if i wasn't so tired i might actually you know write some more but i'm not gonna. and i should be editing my novel right now. or maybe working on the essay for english. or just sleeping.
AIM IM with Abby Torrey
Molly Ronan
hiii Abbyy
Abby Torrey
hiii molly!!
Molly Ronan
howw are you?
Abby Torrey
i am making dinner!
Molly Ronan
wooo!
Abby Torrey
pasta is wonderful
Molly Ronan
it issss for suree.
anyways how was your day?
Abby Torrey
uhm diffrent
Molly Ronan
anything noteworthy happen?
Abby Torrey
uhm i threw a snowball at my sister...
Molly Ronan
hahaha. i'm sure she enjoyed that.
Abby Torrey
mhm and then i get a message from zach torrey : when is colin dying his hair?
confused i am
Molly Ronan
ohhh-k. that is very strange.
Abby Torrey
mhm
what about you?
Molly Ronan
my day was sort of boring, plan, and expected. except for when i found out that Swayer is leaving for good. wanna hear that story?
Abby Torrey
yes please
i heard today as well
Molly Ronan
well i was in english and people were like you're leaving us, abandoning us, blah, blah and someone was like this might be the last time i ever see you. i thought he was just dropping out of english honors so it wasn't until the second half of the period that i actually got he was leaving and going back to his old school. not that i blame him cause HRHS isn't all that great. but then i was sitting on the bus and i see him with some sort of box, probably for his ceramics or something, try to get into the school but it was locked so he leaned up against the wall waiting for someone to open it. and i thought about opening to window and saying bye to him but i didn't. then i wished it did. but it was too late. then i was going to write a blog about stuffs but then i didn't really feel like it and then i saw you were on and i missed talking to you so i talked to you and that is all that is noteworthy in my day i believe. yeah.
Abby Torrey
wow. you know he wouldn't mind if you kept in contact with him. he is going to miss everyone.
Molly Ronan
you know Abby i honestly don't think i will mostly because WAIT. i need to think about what i am going to say because all day today i have been battling in my head about self-image and if you can really change yourself and i was all gung-ho (is that how you say that?) about being more outgoing then i was like i should just accept who i am and blah. but honestly i don't think i will because i didn't have the guts to talk to him at school. correction. i don't have the guts to talk to anyone at school really. and i think it is weird to just have a relationship (like any sort not just BF-GF) over the internet. anyways that was sort of off topic but i haven't written a blog about this recently so that is sort of why i am trying to figure stuff out now.
Abby Torrey
okay. breathe. that sounds good right. innnnnnnn ouuuutttttttt iinnnnnn ouuttttttt.
better
Molly Ronan
lol, yes. i've just been thinking a lot this weekend yet i have nothing to show for it.
Abby Torrey
i am thinking a lot too. but mine won't be going up on a blog. mine is in a notebook.
but. i am there for you. if you need someone to help you be who you want to be. but i do love you for who you are.
Molly Ronan
i know this sounds sappy but i'm about to cry. it could just be because my emotions have been all over the place today but still. and you know that i'm going to hold you to that offer if one day i decide i'm going to take the "jump" and start the "quest". hahaha. that made me smile writing that. XD
Abby Torrey
well you can hold that to me for years if you want!
smile, it is good for your health.
Molly Ronan
i'm smilinggggggg.
Abby Torrey
XD now i need you to do me something.
Molly Ronan
okayyy?
i shall do it.
Abby Torrey
tell me three things you love about yourself. not like i mean you would die if you didn't have these features.
Molly Ronan
that's a really hard question. and is going to take some thought.
Abby Torrey
okay all the time you need.
Molly Ronan
first thing that pops into my head is my intelligence but that is an incorrect statement because i honestly do not think intelligence is inherited. i think it is something you earn or work for or you learn from your parents. but still i don't want to count that as one. but nothing else i coming to mind but that is just first thought. i'll keep thinking.
so the song Say by John Mayer just came up on itunes. i bought it the other day when i posted that on your status.
and this is the first time it's come up on shuffle
Abby Torrey
: ) i love shuffle
Molly Ronan
"living out the same old moment. knowing you would be better off instead if you could only say what you neeed to say"
Abby Torrey
what you need to say. molly i hate words.
Molly Ronan
abby me too. they don't do thoughts and feelings justice. maybe that's why i like writing. i like the challenge. i'm reading a book about a boy who was abandoned in the wilderness and he lived for years on his own then he was captured and they are trying to teach him to be like society. he doesn't speak to say what he needs to say.
Abby Torrey
sounds like me. i needed to talk to colin the other day. about our relationship and molly i have never before in my life felt that stupid and unsure and rediciulous. i knew what i wanted to say but not how to say it so i didn't hurt him or myself. it was horrid. and what is the name of that book?
Molly Ronan
-nod- understood. and it is called Victor. it is kind of confusing at parts but it's still pretty good.
i'm about half way done with it
Abby Torrey
okay. i'll finish my book then try to find it. i think it seems like a book i should read.
Molly Ronan
it is a book you should read
Abby Torrey
have you ever felt like you have no idea what you are thinking for feeling. you are just being.. i guess that is how you could put it.
Molly Ronan
yes. i know what you mean.
Abby Torrey
sort of like you aren't living. you are exsisting
Molly Ronan
like you're just there.
Abby Torrey
mhm
Molly Ronan
and like right now i have no idea what to type. i have so many thoughts in my head but i have no idea what i want to say or how to say it.
Abby Torrey
yes. that is me. it is like being in a class, and not knowing what is going on overall. but you aren't sure what question will help you understand bette
*better
Molly Ronan
yes then when a teacher says "what don't you get?" you have no idea what to say?
Abby Torrey
yes!
Molly Ronan
this human language is so flawed.
Abby Torrey
in so many ways!
Molly Ronan
new topic. i think we should plan to get the Twenty Tens together over Feb. break
Abby Torrey
not a lot of people are going to be around. but yes. the song is just about done too
Molly Ronan
well then you and i can have a meeting. and i can not wait to hear the song.
Abby Torrey
i really hope it works. i am really just randomly throwing things together
Molly Ronan
i'm sure it will but if it doesn't then it will be your stepping stone and it will make your future songs even better because you will learn from it
Abby Torrey
yes. that is what it is going to be
Molly Ronan
that is what i am calling my novel. my stepping stone.
Abby Torrey
the title? or it is a steping stone in general
Molly Ronan
just in general. but that is a good idea for a title.
Abby Torrey
ohh okay
i am going to go eat now. i'll talk to you later?
Molly Ronan
okay. bye.
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