i thought i wanted to write a blog but i think i really just want to go to sleep.

but guess what i'm listening to now. Taylor's new album. we were able to hear it early. we have the super secret soundcloud link. and i love it and i can't stop listening to it. and i'm so proud of Taylor. he has come so far. i don't think it really has sunk in yet what this album really means to Taylor and to me and just the whole thing. like to my family too. my mom said she cried when she heard it. ahh. it's crazy what a big part of my life he is now. like it's kind of ridiculous. i don't want to keep thinking about it now though, i'm sure it will really hit me sometime. maybe if i am holding a physical record. or when he comes to our house and all my friends are there. i don't know. but it hasn't really hit yet but i am sure it will.

in other news my one month without social media is up but i don't even know if want to go back. i'm really hesitant. as much as i missed it, i am now getting used to not having it and i like now having it and not worrying about what everyone else is doing. i'm able to focus on me and i think it is a lot better. i might not download the apps and just use it on the computer. or something. i don't know. i guess it's just that i'm not rushing to go back to the social media world. i'm okay without it.

also i'm trying to decide if i want to study abroad for two semesters or just one next year. i know i'm going to go to shanghai for one semester. but then i don't know if i want to go to spain as well. i would go to one in the fall and the other in the spring. but i would be gone for a long time. but it would be an amazing experience. not sure. still thinking about it.

now i want to sleep, i'm tired, and i'm up early tomorrow. okay goodnight.