my dad makes me feel bad for owning a horse. like i'm wasting money. he was asking questions like "Well Molly looks too big on Murray" implying why don't I ride Murray instead of getting another horse. and he was making a big deal out of there being three horses he has to pay for - Murray, Herbie, and Pride. and then mommy made a comment about the office stuff and he said he didn't get the connection and she said something including "money down the tube". so now i'm in a bad mood and i think i am just going to have a shower then go to bed. no family fun night for me. it's 8:20. shower. read. bed. and try not to let anyone know that i'm crying.