I don't know what to do.

my grandma died. or she is on life support and there is no saving her.

i'm supposed to go to maine this weekend. like leave in a few hours. but I don't know if I should go or just go home.

it could be good to just not think about it and have fun with my friends. but I don't know if I can deal and handle all the people. I could go home and just take a break and then come back for senior week. I don't know. I am just tired and feel gross. I don't know if I can handle this. I don't want to have to handle this.

this was supposed to help me figure out what to do but it has not. I still have no fucking idea.

I am hungry and need to take a shower.