surprise!

And they gave me a surprise. I turned around and there they all were. I was like "Oh, hi". I really had no idea. While I am not a huge surprise person I was glad they came. It was fun. Now I am so so so so so so so tired. I need to go to bed. I have horse camp tomorrow. I'll post a more detailed report tomorrow. Alrighty. I'm happy. (:

secret.

it's 10:49 am on June 27th and I want this day to be over.

and Auntie Lorrie, my favorite Aunt, isn't coming to my "party".

The Day of Birth.

Today would be mine. I'm happy but not AHAHAH IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!

Why do we celebrate birthdays so much? It's a big deal when it is your birthday. Is it just the fact that you have been alive for another year or has our society just built it up and made it what it is. It is a nice holiday though because everyone has their own. But not really. A guy named Nate who goes to my school as the same birthday as me, but he is a year older. That sort of makes me upset because he is stealing my birthday thunder. Whatever.

Since I have a summer birthday sixteen doesn't seem like a big deal. So many other kids in my class are already sixteen so it isn't a big deal. I already have a friend who has her license, meaning she is sixteen and a half. But now I'm sixteen. That big sweet sixteen. It doesn't seem that big. But then again I have never been a birthday person. Or maybe I use to. I would have huge pool parties with my whole class...total of 16 kids.

I am having a family party at the pool. I kind of don't want to. It means that I have to be on my best behavior. I always am but since they are over that means I can't just lounge around in a chair reading for hours. I have to talk to them, make conversation. You know that stuff. And then when I have the cake they will all be looking at me and I have to blow out the candles. That is high pressure. And then I will probably have to open up all the presents so I have to look like I love every present and I'll say thank you a million times. It will be wonderful. Not really.

I was excited for a bit yesterday because I thought Dana would be crashing my family party and then we might have gone to a movie afterwards but her mom said she is busy. Which sucks. So I get to spend my sweet sixteen birthday with my family all day! Woohoo! No huge sweet sixteen party. I am glad though. I guess. I don't like surprise parties. If I had one I would not be smiling I would probably be like OMG NO. Yeah so don't do it.

Today will be my big sixteen celebration and that's it. Then I shall move on with my life like my age never changed.
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I'm tired. Why did I wake up so early? 9:00am is early. It was the fake excitation of the birthday.

Alrighty. Now I have to go and say "Thank you!" to a bunch of facebook posts but I have a system. Whatever they use, I use. If they use my name, I use their name. If they use a smiley face, I use a smiley face. You get what I'm saying?

Anyways I have things to do, places to go. Not really. I kind of want to go back to bed.

followup post.

Ben and Jonathan, who we knew as Johnny accepted so Johnny posted on Dana's wall "dj wants your Phone number". Dj was the nicest and yeah I can see where that is coming from. Dana was the most talkative and I think she is the prettiest. i'm a bit jealous that i didn't get a post like that but hey it's okay. i'll find someone eventually. but i haven't written on either of their walls to say sorry for not jumping off the diving board but whatever. i think the most awkward part will be the next time we go to the pool and if Dana isn't with us. if we are supposed to go and say hi to them if they are out? what if it is Ben and some different kids? anyways i won't have to worry about that until maybe Saturday or Sunday. today my mom has a lesson at 2 and then we are going to a campout with our 4h group. i don't think there will be time for the pool. saturday i'm babysitting from 10:30 to 2ish so maybe after that. then sunday i don't know what i'm doing. then the next week is horse camp so maybe after horse camp on a really hot day or something. but anyways. i always hoped they would be outside or see me or something but it is different now that we have actually talked and such. but whatever. one part of my summer. hopefully i will have a lot more.

and another followup. Finn is back in our house. apparently this morning while i was still sleeping on the way to Maeve's orthodontist appointment, her and Mommy put flyers in people's mailboxes and Amy Avakian was out. so they were talking to her and apparently some guy and his girlfriend were going around door to door with a dog trying to find her owner. obviously Finn. so then when they got back home Mommy was calling around and found out someone from Chesterfield had her. they found her in Westhampton then brought her back. so my mom went and got her and now she is home. and now Maeve has her out on a lesh to go potty because we don't trust her.

i had a dream last night that two houses down from my gramma a truck pulled out and in the back were two dogs, one of them looked like Finn and had her collar on. so we yelled at the truck to stop and we took the dog out but it wasn't Finn. it was just a dog that looked like her with her collar. so then we started yelling at the guy, demanding to know where our dog is. then i think he went inside and i threw the collar at the window and it broke and an alarm went off and i heard Finn bark. then i forced myself to wake up. it was scary. it took me a little bit to fall back asleep.

and that's all. now i am going to eat breakfast in the form of lunch. 11:16. thank goodness for summer.

okay. so today was kind of weird.

so today was Maura's end of the year pool party so we had about 20 5th, soon 6th, graders in the pool. boys and girls. and my grampa didn't mine. Maeve had her two friends Erika and Franki over and I had Bella and Dana over. we played some beach volleyball over the badminton net we set up in the front yard. the six of us just sort of hung out in the front then would go in the pool for a bit and it was all cool. it was fun. i got some silly bands. seven to be exact. they are sort of addicting.

then when everyone except for one boy from Maura's class were gone, the boys next door were out playing. i think it was Dana who had the idea to invite them to play. i think they threw the ball over there and when one of them came to give it back Dana asked if they wanted to play, because our teams were uneven. ha. they were even enough. but anyways they guy said let me go ask the other guys. we suspected they might not even come back but they did. three of them came over. so i said guys on one side, girls on the other while i sat on the sidelines. they were nice. typical boys. then Ben came over, he is the guy who actually lives in the house. then two more boys walked over, one of them lived in the house. their names were (not sure about spelling) Johnny, DJ, John, David, Peter, Ben, and their little brother Sam. we played some beach volleyball which we ruled at and some badminton, not so much. so we switched up the teams a bit. my team lost, the guys were supposed to do pushups and the girls cartwheels. instead i challenged boys against girls for volleyball and if the boys won they could jump off the diving board. then i looked and grampa had already covered the pool. we played anyways. we won but then there was big controversy so we went back a point. then they won. but the pool was closed so they didn't get their reward. then they had to go eat anyways. so they went to eat then we got some ice cream and came back to swim.

my mom knew that when we came back we were going to open up the pool and invite the boys over to swim, because they did win...sort of. so my mom dropped us off at the pool then went to pick up on chinese. so we started to open up the pool then my grampa came out and was like "you're going back in the pool? you're wearing clothes!" well we had our bathing suits on under our clothes. so he helped us get the cover off the pool then he went inside. then gramma came out and we asked her if the boys next door could come over and use the diving board. she hesitated for a bit then she said sure. so we invited them over. they didn't even make it into the pool when grampa came storming out and yelled at them to "GET OUT!". they ran away pretty quickly. my grampa was upset at him because she had already said yes. but he didn't want them over.

i have no idea why he didn't want them over. he had just had a bunch of kids over early, more than that and there were boys and girls there. was it because they were older boys? what if i wanted to have a pool party with boys and girls and invited them over? was it something that happened between grampa and the neighbors before? but i felt really bad and it was kind of scary. i always knew my grampa was grouchy but i don't remember ever seeing him that bad. i probably should have asked him first but i was scared of him before that even happened. i especially didn't talk to afterwards.

but we didn't talk to the boys again either. once they started chanting "David, David" and I think they wanted us to join but we were playing a game where you couldn't give away your location. like Marco Polo without the Marco Polo. Maeve started chanting a bit. but that was it.

i still feel bad. we tried finding them on facebook. we think we found all of them except for DJ and DJ was the nicest. but Dana and I added the other boys. i'll pretty good at facebook stalking. anyways we left without talking to them. but maybe now that the ice is sort of broken we can talk to them again but i am not sure if i want to with my grampa like that. i am not sure if my grampa even knew they were in his front yard playing with us. and if Dana isn't there i might not have the confidence. Dana was the one who talked to them mostly. but not completely. when we were playing badminton us girls were kind of just quiet most of them time but whenever the guys thought they were leaving us out out they would make sure they hit the birdie to us, or at least DJ did. once Ben and Peter's dad came over like to make sure that it was okay the boys were playing with us. i said, yeah we were the ones who invited them over. and their dad was like "are you sure you guys can go over. did Joe say it is okay?" before they came over to swim so maybe there was something that happened before.

but if you erase the last part when my grampa yelled at all of them it was a good day. a good start to the summer.

except for now. my dog is missing. once before when only my dad was home she ran away but we were in the car on the way home and we saw her in the middle of the road so we got her in the car. now the same thing happened. my dad let her out, went to get the mail, and came back and she was gone. when we were driving home we looked for her but didn't see her. my mom called her and she didn't come. then she went back out in the car to look for her and didn't see her. i'm not sure if my mom or dad is out there now. but that is kind of scary. but i didn't kind of scary than my grampa yelling.

goodness. i guess that is part of it. make new friends but have them get yelled at by your grampa and have your dog go missing. for every good thing there must be a bad thing to balance it out.

so i'm either going to go to bed now or talk to Dana some more online. it's 10:17pm on the first full day of summer. yeah man.

edit: wonderful quote of the day today. i sometimes was at a loss for words with all the boys today. but it wasn't that big of deal. Ben was kind of quiet but in a cute kind of way. sometimes it is better to be quiet than obnoxious. anyways the quote: "Who has words at the right moment?" – Charlotte Bronte (1816-1855)

Well Charlotte, I never do.

so tonight is the last night where i have school tomorrow. goodness i'm tired. i have one final. this one sounds like it is going to be the hardest. i studied a little bit but not nearly as much as i should have. i'm done with school. the only worry is when i get my final report card back the place for "final" will have a horrible grade and everyone who my mother shares my report card with will see it. but any studying i do now won't help. i'm too tired.

after i decided that studying was going to work, my head was already done with history and thinking, i watched Pretty Little Liars, a new tv series. well they have me hooked now. if there wasn't school tomorrow i would be watching the next episode right now. but one thing about it that i don't like, all the girls who are supposed to be 16 look so much older than 16. like way older. college girls old. i don't like that. and the show is creepy. like really creepy. but good. very good. they are based off of books, i think my mom checked them out of the library a while ago. they have crappy covers so i never felt the urge to pick it up and read it. my mom started reading one and she said it wasn't that good. well this tv show series is good.

i think i'm just going to go to bed now and not even take a shower because i'm a rebel like that. one more day of school. one more. actually only an hour and a half. then a riding lesson. then three days till my birthday. then my permit. then horse camp. then summer.

APUSH.

what an appropriate 400th post. i am pretty sure once i start eleventh grade i won't have any time for this waster of time. currently it is wasting time that should be used to study for finals. yep. that ain't gonna happen next year.

so APUSH stands for Advanced Placement United States History. a.k.a it is a really hard class about stuff in the past that no one cares about.

so i just read all the letters of advice from kids who took APUSH this year and the year before....i am sick of hearing the words "Time Management". seriously i am pretty sure every single letter said those two words. but i get it.

the letters sort of seemed like they were from some secret club that you had to be invited into. i'm excited to be taking it next year. yes i am excited. i am excited to get that million page book that i have to read and read it. i'm not too excited to answer the questions about the book but i'm going to do it. i'm also excited to start my first IDS. i'm also excited to kick this class's butt before i can kick mine. i am going to try my hardest to do the whole two IDSs a night. i am going to try to stay on top of everything. everyone said that Mrs. Schott's class is killer but i survived with an average higher than 80 on every report card and for quarter three i had a 90 thank you very much. so i'm ready to go.

i am also excited to write my letter for the next year. i am already seeing myself at the finish line. i'm also excited to create the "family" in the class. maybe this class will help with the whole "she doesn't talk" thing. or it will do the opposite. whatever. i'm still excited for the class.

i think the most annoying part of the class will be the complaining. i'm not a complainer. i think complainers should shut their pie hole. such as Katelyn who has already posted as her faceook status: "Already starting to dislike APUSH." Why the heck are you taking the class if you get your summer work and you don't like the class? Why don't you just quit now because i don't want to listen to you complaining all year.

Katelyn's dad did give me a ride to the barn today but i kind of wish she didn't because then i could have walked with Ian but that could have proofed awkward but still. when someone offers you a ride you don't refuse because you would rather walk. doesn't make sense. not when you are carrying a 40 million pound APUSH book.

anyways happy 900th post, first day of summer, and all of that stuff. i only have two days left. stupid 7th period final. Maeve's done after tomorrow. whatever. can i just get on with my two months without school?

now i have to study. i don't want to. so i'm still rambling. ramble. ramble. ramble. wow. i have no life. at least next year i'll have AP to take up the time.