i just had to say goodbye to my boyfriend for 2 weeks. even though i've had to say goodbye before vacations before - Tobago before we were dating, China, Kentucky, New York (when he went and when I went), and Spain - it is always so hard. i hate it so much. we have a hard enough time saying goodnight before we leave each night. it's like we are supposed to be with each other all the time - or i just want to be.

but the next few days before i go to california will be hell. i probably won't have any contact with josh at all. at least when i'm in california i will be distracted from the fact that i don't have any contact with josh at all - at least until he comes back on the 30th then i can text him and skype with him until i come back on the 4th. so all and all it will be two weeks until we are both back home.

i have to admit i am a bit excited for california, but it would have been better if Josh came with me.