i have so much to catch you up on. the paradise fears/sunderland concert seems like forever ago.

and the taylor house party seems like two forevers ago.

i'm exhausted now though. i was in the library from 2 to 12 with Amelie and was deliriously tired by the end.

and i'm doing that stupid thing where i have a crush on a boy who i don't really know and i think about him too much and my stomach does that stupid butterfly thing. the problem is though that i have barely talked to him and really don't know anything about him. and i shouldn't have a crush on him. and i should stop thinking about him. and honestly i need to stop being an idiot. and i need to stop thinking about boys. i'm a happy self-confident independent woman who doesn't need or want a man. i have to focus on school and making money and getting an internship this semester. and then this summer i need to focus on my internship. then in the fall i'll be in china. (even though this crush is going on the BRIC program so he will be in China for a bit during the fall just saying...but who knows what our relationship will be then (meaning friends, enemies, not talking, acquaintances, madly in love, etc))

i had a nice dinner out with Amelie and Ellie today though. we focused on positive things and smiled and laughed a lot. and i just really love them. and yeah. now i should sleep. i got like 6 hours last night and i am so exhausted. so i am going to go sleep now. maybe i'll catch you up on everything soon.