it's so much harder being home when josh and i are apart than when i'm away and he's home. it's probably the same way for him. but last night was really hard for both of us on skype. it was harder than any other time i've gone away, for both of us. maybe because he felt bad about leaving, which usually he doesn't have to worry about since i'm the one leaving. but at least last night i was able to skype with him, even if we were both sad and in bad moods for part of it. tonight i can't hear him or see him. it sucks so much. sucks to suck.