i feel like if you stop being amazed that you are with a person then it isn't as special. like today i just got a feeling that i couldn't believe i was sitting next to this boy and he just kissed me. like i was so lucky. and he easily could have just walked away and chose someone else, but he picked me. but really its just the feeling when i'm next to him and i'm amazed that we are together. that it works so well. it is amazing. even after almost 11 months, i am still shocked that he likes me the same way i like him and we get along so well. i mean i know him a lot better now and we aren't as awkward, but i am not at the place where i say "we are going to be together forever, we are meant to be, we know everything about each other, it's just natural and normal we're together" because i don't believe that. i literally told him today that i couldn't believe i was over his house right next to him because he wanted me to come over. i still get butterflies when i get close to his house. but yeah.

minus spending time with josh, and helping Zamira and Valentina, and dancing around while babysitting, this week sucked.