right now I am so tired that I can't concentrate on anything. I'm trying to get homework done before I go to 4H but I just can't do it. like I'm so tired that nothing is sticking. it's only 6. like it's going to stick at 8 when i get home from 4h. this is a bit of a dilemma. i'll just have to deal with this later. cause now it's time to go to 4h.

i'm just gonna go feel sorry for myself a little more.

i don't want to go to sleep because i don't really want to deal with tomorrow. because tomorrow i have to do my homework. i have to figure out what i'm wearing to senior pictures. then i have to get dolly ready for senior pictures. then get myself ready. then go take those pictures. then i have to go to bed early cause i have school the next day. and then i have to babysit.

and today was a good day. so i'm trying to just hold onto it a little bit longer.

youtube and tumblr both aren't working. so i turn to blogger or else i'll have to put clothes away or go to the barn or do something productive, which i don't want to do. but so far i've had a good morning. i woke up at 8:30 and was going to go back to sleep but instead texting Josh until he left for work at 9. then i went back to sleep until 11. then i stayed in my bed on my laptop until 12. then i had some breakfast/lunch of leftover pizza. then i came back upstairs and watched youtube videos until they stopped working.

things that i should be doing: putting clothes away, getting dressed, going to the barn, doing homework, planning college visits

yeahhh not really feeling that. i'm just hiding in my room putting on chapstick. oh, my mom just came and visited me. how nice. except she left both of my doors open. i mean comeee onnn, now i have to get up, put my dirty clothes in the laundry room, shut my doors.

i have such a lazy life. but don't worry, i'm back to work again on tuesday. which is just babysitting twice a week. but i'm going to start tutoring too, which will be like work without getting paid. great.

i had an idea for a business though, which i should write down before i forget. but when kids go to visit colleges and take a tour there isn't a great follow up that i've seen. maybe like a thank you for visiting. but what they should have is a little survey. like who led your tour, what did you like about it, what didn't you like about it, are you going to apply, or why not. cause one of the reasons i'm not going to clarkson was cause of their crappy tour. but they'll never know that. how many prospective students are they missing out on because of a bad tour? so what my company would do is we would send some cookies or something along with a survey to the students who took a tour, the college would provide us with the name and address of the students and who led the tour. then these students would be like "oooh! cookies!" and it would take them two seconds to fill out this survey and send it back. and since it's from a third party, they won't feel bad if they tell the truth about the college. then of course when we receive these surveys back, we will give the information back to the college. and we could even take it one step more and look at trends, like everyone who had Eric as a tour guide said that they weren't going to apply. well now the college knows that they need to get rid of Eric as a tour guide. this sort of information could help the college to get more people to apply, and the more people, then the better the selection, and they could have the best students come to their college, which for some reason is important to college even though they'll all pay the same amount.

anyways yeah, that's why i want to be a business student.

only 10 more posts until 1,000

this is the 990th. if all is correct.
i let josh read my blog. for like 20 minutes while i was in the shower. hi josh, assuming i let you read more. he just read from about January to May. which is a lot. and today when i asked him what he thought about it he didn't tell me! we started talking about something else instead. so he needs to tell me, but now he's sleeping. or will be shortly.

but we went to the fair today. which was interesting. but i was reminded why i don't like rides. like even if i didn't get sick on that last one, the rides were just like why did we do that again? but yeah, on the ride i thought i would be fine on, i wasn't. that was a close one. but i've figured out my body pretty well so i know how to handle stuff and that one got better quickly, and i knew i was fine. so abby and josh who are reading this, stop worrying, and stop being sorry. i'll tell you when you need to hold me up in order for me to walk.

i don't know, i wish that hadn't happened but it's whatever. i'm used to stuff like that happening so it's no big deal. i'm fine. seriously.

now i don't know what else to write. i feel like i should be writing more. but i don't know. i guess i should just go to sleep. but i really feel like i should be saying more. whatever.

so today was the first day of school. and i could probably easily say that it was the best first day of school ever. maybe. as far as first days of schools go. and this was my last first day of high school. so yeah. it went well. it should be a good year. hopefully. if it isn't then at least i had a good first day. i'm not going to go through my whole day cause i just went through the whole thing with josh sooooo i don't feel like repeating myself.

that's all. i'm still considering letting josh read this. considering it. still thinking. we'll see. if i do, then hi josh! (: