tonight is the first night i've felt depressed. just sort of tired and sad. not like i want to go home, i want to stay here, i belong here. i just sort of miss being able to watch tv without people talking loudly, and i want to have a sincere one and one conversation. i'm sick of walking around everywhere in packs, because we have to do everything together, because if i do something with just one person then i'm leaving everyone else out. and i want to make some new friends too. but right now i guess i'm going to sleep. although i would love to have one of those late night deep philosophical talks right now. i just don't have anyone to do that with right now. so sleep it is.

and by the way, i hate presidential election time. thank goodness it only comes every four years.